Before Catastrophe

The song by "They Don't Know About Us" by the  hit-making boy band from the land of the Lords, One Direction, fits me in every possible angle.

I wish this song would came up earlier, um like before ten nights into June.

Because I think it really whispered to the ears of my heart, of how worthy was the relationship I had with him. Its not something that you will find at the foyer of your college or the sidewalk of the infamous streets of Kuala Lumpur. It's something that you stumble upon on, swallowing bits by bits to apprehend of what is there to worship and to care, as we speak. Because the ultimate reason of the "catastrophe" was forbidden love. How foolish was I to believe that I'm gonna be fine, well physically I am okay, but you know you are not as happy as you were, before. How come I never thought of this, "they don't know about us". They don't know how hard it is to find someone who actually decide to stay in relationship with you, giving all the commitments, making up time when there's no time left. It scared the shit out of me to realize that not many of "them" out there are willing to stay.

However, my mind tells me its gonna be alright. My heart says, there's still something there, maybe the timing was out of place, we were young and they think "forever" is too much for an adolescence to handle. I believe, we were the exception. You were the exception darling. There's something about you makes me smile effortlessly. If you were to go out with someone else, I won't lie it will hurt. I'm just glad you haven't.

I think we should probably allow our academics and followed by our soon-to-be career leads us to our path and hopefully we cross path and give it another shot.

"If you were given one wish, what would it be?"

"To be with you like the past."

Sayang, hold on. because I do to.