I hate what break ups can do to you. It is so agonizing, painful, I'm just tired, had enough crying myself to sleep. Its so fucking hard when you know the only thing that could possibly make you better is to be in good terms with your ex lover. What's more painful than that, when you have the best intention but nobody seem to care, nobody seem to response. and I am disappointed in me that I make everyone suffer. I can't blame anyone but me. Every single time when Im with anyone , no matter is it my friends or my family, the only person there is on my mind, is you. I look like a fool, crawling back to you. I don't know why, what has got into me. I'm surrounded by thousand of people, there's hope out there but inside I'm so cold. I don't know how will I rectify this situation that I don't fond of.