Growth

What's about growth?

Looking back over my shoulder, I saw myself wallowing in the corner, how resentful I felt towards the world. How I conjure negativity and gives my consent towards it to reign my entire mind and soul. Then I compare with the present, how fast and quickly my self esteem escalated and climbed atop the walls that I created myself. What I experience was totally real and I'm lost in words how dreadful I felt about myself. Even though I am not wholly recovered but I can feel the shift and the drift.

I am dumbfounded by myself, to begin with. I no longer feel envious of his "achievement" nor hold grudges. Maybe I finally found the silver lining in this. Maybe I found how much I put up with everyone else and let myself being punched with what ever comes. I lost couple of friends and hey the world doesn't stop there. Find new friends. There's always someone somehow people meet. Also, I learn how to commute from place to place on my own. If I feel hollow and depression bund to sink in, I start writing. It heals.


2/3 of me is new. It feels good. Because I finally put myself before anyone else.