College

Hey guys, it's been a while since  I've updated this blog. Well life has been crazy and I've been blessed with great people and great things in life. Currently I'm in my friend's room doing nothing. College is just starting and I feel the pressure already. Pressure to excel, pressure to make my parents proud. There's one thing they don't know about me, I have fear.  My biggest fear is change. I hate changes. It sucks. I have to move out from the house that I've lived for the past 15 years. That's hard. I hate the fact that I don't get to see my dad and mum always. I hate the fact that my gay partners aren't in the same place and last but not least I hate the fact that Shah Alam is far from home.  Since I was a kid, I've been so closed to my dad. He's my bestfriend, partner in crime and living diary. Sigh. I miss him always. My gay partners. I'm not sure whether they are aware of the fact that I miss them and I miss talking to them blabbing about shit that only they get it. Everyone is busy , taking care of their own life . Sigh.  So far My college life is okay. Thank Allah for introducing me to Cuddy , Dayah, and Ain.


aih. I WANT MY DAD :( MY MUM :(